Insanity...

Anger flows to an explosion that is bound to invade me - the intense heat - blood rushing fast - something I know that will never vanish because I choose to hold inside - My head spins from anxiety that my mind can not handle - sweat pours and gushes out of my skin pores - red blood shots invade my eyes from sleepless nights thinking of you - I try to take you out my repulsive mind - because the pain I feel makes me want to commit suicide (not in reality) - I need to run, run away from all this - my heart races as I feel the thought of you getting extremely closer - my thoughts surrenders from the fight I have - I become crazy - I begin moving intensly on my bed as if I am strapped in a mental hospital bed - I dream of this in a white room - I wonder... have you taken my soul, my emotions, my thoughts and left me with nothing - EXTREMELY NOTHING? - Why do you torment me? - "what do yo want from me?" is what I scream in the middle of the night with a hot sweaty blood bash of intense beating to my body - From this I run to the kitchen, looking around like I was somewhere I never been to - I see darkness, as if I were to be a blind person - I get these shivers (as if I were outside in the cold) as I walk around crazy in the kitchen damaging my my body by walking towards the edges of counters - I begin to grab my hair and scream - shed many tears - I can not take this anymore - I open numerous cabinets and seek for something that I can not try to think what it was - until... I have touched it.... - a butcher, nice where I left it - felt this liquid dripping from my hand - held the butcher to tight in the wrong position - once it was there, that's when I lost my patients - everything stopped... time, movement of my body, feelings rushing through me, my senses... EVERYTHING! -Then that is when I noticed something...
from...
above....
looking down on the kitchen floor....
.....ME :o(