Slacking Hard & More Thoughts...
Ok.. I'm seriously fucking up this semester in school. I have this habbit when I know school is about to be over, I seriously SLACK HARD! I mean damn, I need to stop doing this because I always tend to mess up my GPA when I do that. Its been a habit for 4 years already...
I want to major in Nursing, but right now I'm undecided. So next semester, which will be in the fall and I would be a sophmore, I'm going to major in Nursing. The classes I am taking at this moment have nothing to do with my major for the near future except for one class.... Biology. The rest are to get credit. I'm taking Web Design (which I am really slacking on right now), Photography(its ok... I just need to pass in my portraits that I took by this upcoming Thursday), and also I am taking First Year Seminar (where they help us with our portfolios). The only class that I like taking at this moment is Biology, but that is hard... so much to mesmerize in that class. Like today, I had an exam... I had ten pages of notes to study and on top of that I had the book. Ight its not that much, but I left that shit for last minute. Usually when I am in class, I pay close attention to what the teacher explains. But for the past two weeks, DAMN... I have been dozing off in class because my mind is confused and wonders around. So last night I came back on campus to chill with my peoples... and thats when it came to mind that I have an exam the next morning. OMG... my ass stayed up until almost three in the morning trying to study and all that crap. Then I took more notes on the things I did not understand clearly so that was more for me to study. I woke up at 630 to study even more, went back to bed around 830am then after woke up again for breakfast and studied some more. Usually when I study last minute, I get good grades... but this time, I dont think I did good on that exam. I seriousy blanked out when I came to the last three pages of the exam. I dont know, I'll just have to find out what I get in the next couple of days.
I have like almost three weeks to do a miracle to get my grades up. DAMN MAN....
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Ight... I have liked this guy since the day I have met him. DAMN, this dude look DUMB GOOD, lol, NO LIE!!! I mean, every girl who has seen him said he was seksi. I call him the forbidden fruit because I can't touch that. But then again its very tempting... basically it's almost like the story of Adam and Eve but just a ghetto version and a little twist to it, lol. I met him the summer of 2003 with one of my boys, which is a bad thing because he is one of his closest friend. But that was the only time I met this dude. So after seeing him only once, you know I just forgot about him and then I got real close to my boy and started dating him. I went out with him for a year and 3 months. But during the times I was going out with him, forbidden fruit started to pop up into the picture by chilling with us and all that, which in my mind was a bad thing. Why, you may ask... because what I felt the first time I met him came back to me real hard and it was to the point that I felt something needed to be done. But I never stepped up to the plate because No. 1, I didnt think I was his type No. 2, hes one of those ppl where you just think you would never have a chance with and No. 3 he looked to damn good to even look in your direction. And damn well I knew I was shy around this muthafucka...lol. Just everything about him attracted to me. He basically had the qualities that I want in a man. Don't get me wrong, the dude I was going out with, I did not have a problem with him, but you know when you know what you want and its there, that is what you want to aim for. But I didnt but I want to, but its not my damn place.
But still, thats what I want and I know that I want that. My mind was made the first time I seen this dude. His personality is just beautiful, like his mind is on point on what he wants in life and everything. His smile is beautiful, his eyes are seksi. His body... dont get me started. Plus, there are other things that I am attracted to that he has. He makes me laugh, which is a plus because I love to smile all the time. He can keep a convo, which is another plus. I hate sitting on the phone and there is dead silence. It urks me a whole lot. Not only that, when I ask questions (I'm a curious person who is determined to learn things and have more knowledge) he is there to answer me without no attitude and all the other bull crap to put me down (unlike some other people). He's very smart. I mean the way he speaks and lets me know things, just damn! I mean when I would go through something he would sit there and listen to me and just be there and not put me down, which is another plus. Most people (no names) I would go to when I have a problem would just cut me off and say I dont want to hear it, or they would just straight up and just give me some bull crap that they would rather me talk to them the next day about my problem. I hate that shit. I mean there was a situation where I went through and niggas just fell asleep on me right there on the spot. WTF!? I was salted. But when I told him, he was there to listen and gave me some advice. And also I would sit there and listen to what he had on his mind.
I like that type of relationship I had with this person. But the thing is, it sucks that I dont talk to him no more. I wish that things was still going on between us. I dont know, maybe it stopped for a reason. I always look at a situation as a reason to happen. I can't help it. I dont know... we'll see if things come back...
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April 18th is my birthday. I will be 20 years old and I feel like I'm old lol. I know 20 is not an old age, but when you are growing up, just damn, I just think I'm not young anymore... the teen life is just gone.
I'm planning to do something special the night before my birthday, chill with my girls and my boys. Go out to eat and club right after since I dont have school the following the day. But when I think about it, I kinda want to chill with someone alone also. But I dont have a clue who. I also want to go somewhere far for the night and come back the next day or something. But I dont know, we'll see what happens that night.
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I got a phone call from someone I havent spoke to or seen for about 2-3 years. It was good to hear from him. We were on the phone for 4 hours straight, which means we had a good conversation :o). We really had to catch up on some serious things. I known this person since god knows when... the 3rd grade, lol. He moved from Mass to DC, and now hes in Maryland. Who does that?? But I know he wants to come back to Mass as soon as possible. I had fun talking to him on the phone. It was nice to be able to talk to him and a good thing to know things that I didn't know. The conversation went out smooth. I was shock because we really was not that close to tell each other things that we did on the phone... hmmm maybe its a sign of a new friendship between us. Ever since this call, we have been keeping in contact and I am happy about it. That really brought me a smile to my face after that.
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Last week on Tuesday I went to work around 6pm. I asked my x if he was able to come get me to bring me to work since my job is far from my school. He said no. I said ok, and he wanted to give me the whole nine yard of why he couldnt come get me. I told him I didnt want to hear it. But then he was like, he'll come get me after work. I said ok. So my best friends man (who has been taking me to work ever since god knows when) took me to work that night and I told him my c was going to pick me up. He said ok, which was cool. Now, work was about to end and I called my x to see where he was at. He never responded. So I left a message saying that time was coming. Work ended and I called again, and he never answered. Called the next couple of 5 minutes and he never answered. I stayed waiting for him for a half hour and he never showed up. What did u think I did... I got HEATED. SO of course I had no money, and I didnt have a jacket on. Mind you it was cold. So I had no choice but to take the bus. I got out of work at 930 and got exactly at school at midnight because I called my girl to come pick me up and bring me to school. DO YOU KNOW WHAT VEX MEANS??? Because that is what I was feeling that night. On top of that, he had some big balls to call on some shit that his chest hurt. WTF?? Did you not remember you were suppose to come get me at work. OMG, we got into a big arguement. He hung up. did I care. NO! He then called me back late that night and that was when I recieved that special phone call from the person I just wrote above about. I told him that I was going to be on that phone with him for a while so he said bye... again did it hurt me, no. The next day he tries to make it up by sending me an e-mail saying sorry... I didnt even take his apology. I just got fed up and gave up. I told him, there is no need for me to ask him for some favor no more. Nigga couldnt even acknowledge me that he was not coming through. And did he care, well I sure thought he didnt. AND to make it worst... nigga had the audacity to show up in my school thinking everything was ok?! UGH, that made me even more mad at him. I told you NO and you came anyway, which made matters worse....UGH I get fed up with dudes real easily!!! I havent really called him because I am still angry. Once I calm my anger out, maybe he might get a call from me...
Anywho, I gotta sign off since I got other things to do. Damn, I actually took some time off my hands to write in this blog... until next time, *Seksi*
I want to major in Nursing, but right now I'm undecided. So next semester, which will be in the fall and I would be a sophmore, I'm going to major in Nursing. The classes I am taking at this moment have nothing to do with my major for the near future except for one class.... Biology. The rest are to get credit. I'm taking Web Design (which I am really slacking on right now), Photography(its ok... I just need to pass in my portraits that I took by this upcoming Thursday), and also I am taking First Year Seminar (where they help us with our portfolios). The only class that I like taking at this moment is Biology, but that is hard... so much to mesmerize in that class. Like today, I had an exam... I had ten pages of notes to study and on top of that I had the book. Ight its not that much, but I left that shit for last minute. Usually when I am in class, I pay close attention to what the teacher explains. But for the past two weeks, DAMN... I have been dozing off in class because my mind is confused and wonders around. So last night I came back on campus to chill with my peoples... and thats when it came to mind that I have an exam the next morning. OMG... my ass stayed up until almost three in the morning trying to study and all that crap. Then I took more notes on the things I did not understand clearly so that was more for me to study. I woke up at 630 to study even more, went back to bed around 830am then after woke up again for breakfast and studied some more. Usually when I study last minute, I get good grades... but this time, I dont think I did good on that exam. I seriousy blanked out when I came to the last three pages of the exam. I dont know, I'll just have to find out what I get in the next couple of days.
I have like almost three weeks to do a miracle to get my grades up. DAMN MAN....
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Ight... I have liked this guy since the day I have met him. DAMN, this dude look DUMB GOOD, lol, NO LIE!!! I mean, every girl who has seen him said he was seksi. I call him the forbidden fruit because I can't touch that. But then again its very tempting... basically it's almost like the story of Adam and Eve but just a ghetto version and a little twist to it, lol. I met him the summer of 2003 with one of my boys, which is a bad thing because he is one of his closest friend. But that was the only time I met this dude. So after seeing him only once, you know I just forgot about him and then I got real close to my boy and started dating him. I went out with him for a year and 3 months. But during the times I was going out with him, forbidden fruit started to pop up into the picture by chilling with us and all that, which in my mind was a bad thing. Why, you may ask... because what I felt the first time I met him came back to me real hard and it was to the point that I felt something needed to be done. But I never stepped up to the plate because No. 1, I didnt think I was his type No. 2, hes one of those ppl where you just think you would never have a chance with and No. 3 he looked to damn good to even look in your direction. And damn well I knew I was shy around this muthafucka...lol. Just everything about him attracted to me. He basically had the qualities that I want in a man. Don't get me wrong, the dude I was going out with, I did not have a problem with him, but you know when you know what you want and its there, that is what you want to aim for. But I didnt but I want to, but its not my damn place.
But still, thats what I want and I know that I want that. My mind was made the first time I seen this dude. His personality is just beautiful, like his mind is on point on what he wants in life and everything. His smile is beautiful, his eyes are seksi. His body... dont get me started. Plus, there are other things that I am attracted to that he has. He makes me laugh, which is a plus because I love to smile all the time. He can keep a convo, which is another plus. I hate sitting on the phone and there is dead silence. It urks me a whole lot. Not only that, when I ask questions (I'm a curious person who is determined to learn things and have more knowledge) he is there to answer me without no attitude and all the other bull crap to put me down (unlike some other people). He's very smart. I mean the way he speaks and lets me know things, just damn! I mean when I would go through something he would sit there and listen to me and just be there and not put me down, which is another plus. Most people (no names) I would go to when I have a problem would just cut me off and say I dont want to hear it, or they would just straight up and just give me some bull crap that they would rather me talk to them the next day about my problem. I hate that shit. I mean there was a situation where I went through and niggas just fell asleep on me right there on the spot. WTF!? I was salted. But when I told him, he was there to listen and gave me some advice. And also I would sit there and listen to what he had on his mind.
I like that type of relationship I had with this person. But the thing is, it sucks that I dont talk to him no more. I wish that things was still going on between us. I dont know, maybe it stopped for a reason. I always look at a situation as a reason to happen. I can't help it. I dont know... we'll see if things come back...
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April 18th is my birthday. I will be 20 years old and I feel like I'm old lol. I know 20 is not an old age, but when you are growing up, just damn, I just think I'm not young anymore... the teen life is just gone.
I'm planning to do something special the night before my birthday, chill with my girls and my boys. Go out to eat and club right after since I dont have school the following the day. But when I think about it, I kinda want to chill with someone alone also. But I dont have a clue who. I also want to go somewhere far for the night and come back the next day or something. But I dont know, we'll see what happens that night.
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I got a phone call from someone I havent spoke to or seen for about 2-3 years. It was good to hear from him. We were on the phone for 4 hours straight, which means we had a good conversation :o). We really had to catch up on some serious things. I known this person since god knows when... the 3rd grade, lol. He moved from Mass to DC, and now hes in Maryland. Who does that?? But I know he wants to come back to Mass as soon as possible. I had fun talking to him on the phone. It was nice to be able to talk to him and a good thing to know things that I didn't know. The conversation went out smooth. I was shock because we really was not that close to tell each other things that we did on the phone... hmmm maybe its a sign of a new friendship between us. Ever since this call, we have been keeping in contact and I am happy about it. That really brought me a smile to my face after that.
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Last week on Tuesday I went to work around 6pm. I asked my x if he was able to come get me to bring me to work since my job is far from my school. He said no. I said ok, and he wanted to give me the whole nine yard of why he couldnt come get me. I told him I didnt want to hear it. But then he was like, he'll come get me after work. I said ok. So my best friends man (who has been taking me to work ever since god knows when) took me to work that night and I told him my c was going to pick me up. He said ok, which was cool. Now, work was about to end and I called my x to see where he was at. He never responded. So I left a message saying that time was coming. Work ended and I called again, and he never answered. Called the next couple of 5 minutes and he never answered. I stayed waiting for him for a half hour and he never showed up. What did u think I did... I got HEATED. SO of course I had no money, and I didnt have a jacket on. Mind you it was cold. So I had no choice but to take the bus. I got out of work at 930 and got exactly at school at midnight because I called my girl to come pick me up and bring me to school. DO YOU KNOW WHAT VEX MEANS??? Because that is what I was feeling that night. On top of that, he had some big balls to call on some shit that his chest hurt. WTF?? Did you not remember you were suppose to come get me at work. OMG, we got into a big arguement. He hung up. did I care. NO! He then called me back late that night and that was when I recieved that special phone call from the person I just wrote above about. I told him that I was going to be on that phone with him for a while so he said bye... again did it hurt me, no. The next day he tries to make it up by sending me an e-mail saying sorry... I didnt even take his apology. I just got fed up and gave up. I told him, there is no need for me to ask him for some favor no more. Nigga couldnt even acknowledge me that he was not coming through. And did he care, well I sure thought he didnt. AND to make it worst... nigga had the audacity to show up in my school thinking everything was ok?! UGH, that made me even more mad at him. I told you NO and you came anyway, which made matters worse....UGH I get fed up with dudes real easily!!! I havent really called him because I am still angry. Once I calm my anger out, maybe he might get a call from me...
Anywho, I gotta sign off since I got other things to do. Damn, I actually took some time off my hands to write in this blog... until next time, *Seksi*
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