Whole New Person...
I feel really new today. I have actually felt new for almost two weeks now. I don't feel the way i used to feel during my whole life. I have done some crazy things for the past few days also... loved every bit of it :)
Last night I did something that was out of my character. Did I feel good about it... of course I did. I had no shame in what I have done. Would I do it again... of course I would. I mean I have been holding things inside me for my whole life. I should learn to enjoy my life to the fullest and take any risk. I mean I will never know when my last day would be. So I should take it day by day and have fun with it. I mean I have been thinking about this for the longest time ever... well ever since I have met this person (nothing sexual). And yesturday...it happened and I am hoping that it would happen again :D
I also did something else out of my character the night before that. I stopped, well actually I yelled out to these Bikers and said "Nice Bike!" I am a motorcycle fanatic!! I seriously want one to ride. I'm getting my permit for it by next month and I hope the person I asked to help me search for one would help me. But yea... I yelled that out the window of my girls car (she called me crazy) then they asked us to pull over. I told her to pull over to see what they have to offer. These dudes were cool and everything, but their ages was just not in my sense. They were over 30, lol. Nothing wrong with that...but that is NOT in my character to start talking to one like that, lol. But anywho I was amazed by his bike and he seen that in my eyes so he told me sit on it and start if off. He told me to take it for a spin but I said naw because I don't know how to ride one just yet. But he trusted me with it...but I insisted that I would learn first before I get on his and ride it. Sooooo I gave him my number and he gave me his... his friend did the same and gave it to my girl that was with me. So supposedly we're suppose to meet and they will teach us how to ride it. SO EXCITED!! :D
My whole attitude about everything has changed. i don't take much things as serious anymore. I don't involve myself with some people who do not deserve to be respected. I just noticed... there are a lot of people who play a certain role but they lie to themselves and to me. I don't need that anymore. So basically I erased most of them out my life. I haven't talked to them and I am not planning to anymore. I mean I know for a fact that I will be seeing them some time soon in life... and I'm not going to be ignorant about it either (if they speak one word to me) by not saying Hi or starting some sort of conversation...but right now... its whatever to me. I feel much better without problems. I know I start most of them but you can not help that your name is being spoken without your presence being around. I want some new REAL people in my life. I already started socializing with new people. However, I haven't given 100% of trust. Only in one (known him for a hot minute now).
Anywho... I have to go now. I have to go to work so maybe tonight I will leave a new message about what I have spoken about in my first paragraph :)
(Love You Angel)
*Seksi*
Last night I did something that was out of my character. Did I feel good about it... of course I did. I had no shame in what I have done. Would I do it again... of course I would. I mean I have been holding things inside me for my whole life. I should learn to enjoy my life to the fullest and take any risk. I mean I will never know when my last day would be. So I should take it day by day and have fun with it. I mean I have been thinking about this for the longest time ever... well ever since I have met this person (nothing sexual). And yesturday...it happened and I am hoping that it would happen again :D
I also did something else out of my character the night before that. I stopped, well actually I yelled out to these Bikers and said "Nice Bike!" I am a motorcycle fanatic!! I seriously want one to ride. I'm getting my permit for it by next month and I hope the person I asked to help me search for one would help me. But yea... I yelled that out the window of my girls car (she called me crazy) then they asked us to pull over. I told her to pull over to see what they have to offer. These dudes were cool and everything, but their ages was just not in my sense. They were over 30, lol. Nothing wrong with that...but that is NOT in my character to start talking to one like that, lol. But anywho I was amazed by his bike and he seen that in my eyes so he told me sit on it and start if off. He told me to take it for a spin but I said naw because I don't know how to ride one just yet. But he trusted me with it...but I insisted that I would learn first before I get on his and ride it. Sooooo I gave him my number and he gave me his... his friend did the same and gave it to my girl that was with me. So supposedly we're suppose to meet and they will teach us how to ride it. SO EXCITED!! :D
My whole attitude about everything has changed. i don't take much things as serious anymore. I don't involve myself with some people who do not deserve to be respected. I just noticed... there are a lot of people who play a certain role but they lie to themselves and to me. I don't need that anymore. So basically I erased most of them out my life. I haven't talked to them and I am not planning to anymore. I mean I know for a fact that I will be seeing them some time soon in life... and I'm not going to be ignorant about it either (if they speak one word to me) by not saying Hi or starting some sort of conversation...but right now... its whatever to me. I feel much better without problems. I know I start most of them but you can not help that your name is being spoken without your presence being around. I want some new REAL people in my life. I already started socializing with new people. However, I haven't given 100% of trust. Only in one (known him for a hot minute now).
Anywho... I have to go now. I have to go to work so maybe tonight I will leave a new message about what I have spoken about in my first paragraph :)
(Love You Angel)
*Seksi*
posted by Seksi at 11:20 AM
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