Why?

Have you ever went through an issue whereas you have been wanting something for so long and when it's there... your frozen up?

Well this has happened to me twice. I have been wanting this person for so long and finally that I had that opportunity, I'm all frozen up inside. And I feel bad because I lead him on. Something keeps holding me back from what I want to do... and I dont know why.

Last night him and I chilled for the whole day after work. He asked me to come to his crib and I did. Everything was str8. Laughing, chilling, talking, play fighting, all that you can name made everything coo naw mean. But then when it came to just him and I alone... I was frozen up HARD! My mind kept on talking and talking to the pt everytime I had the chance I would stop right in the middle. As much as I wanted to, I couldnt and that shyt is urking me HARD. So now, basically I wasted his time and basically mine.

I feel he has every right to be upset because I say one thing and all of a sudden my mind is changed. The thing is... what is making me feel this way and WHY?

I would write more, but I have to leave for work. I'll finish this on later tonight.
*Seksi*